Thanks for your reply, i'm afraid I am nowhere near to go for a coffee, as I live in Southend-on-Sea, Essex. Thanks for the offer. Councelling is good but this I find very hard, as I find it hard to talk to people. I can listen well, but find it hard to respond, Carl did a lot of talking for both of us. At the moment day times are easier than nights, as I have people around me. My neighbours are also supportive, but as I am so quiet I find it hard to knock on their doors. I know people tell me that time will help, but I am not sure. I have thought about getting a dog to keep me occupied, but this will not be for a few months yet, as I have garden panels to replace in the garden, and then to find the right dog (I am looking for a cokerpoo).
Must go now, hope I have not bored you.